Mental note: green tea makes any meal delicious, due to it's palette-wiping properties.

Real update time. I've been down in the dumps lately, mainly because of...well, I guess it's environment issues. Haven't socialized outside of the house lately, since whenever I come home, first thing I see is a mess--and how I don't have the energy to tidy up. Thus leaving me tired and anti-social. Had sinus issues since August, and trying to do something outside of the domain feels like pulling teeth. Besides, the furry drama in the KY community, according to Tom, is horrendous, so it's best I don't even put myself near it. I apologize to anyone actually wanting my company, but I just don't have much drive to do anything. I am on the lookout for a second/replacement job to sit in Target's chair, Spi suggesting a management position at Borders. Now, I will not quit my job to do commissions, I can't fucking draw, and there is no promise in it. In my current days, penny-pinching is no stranger to me, although I consistently feel poor and unaccomplished. Tiny strands of creativity try to break through every now and then, but are only stifled by work/cleaning/irritability. But thanks to Miss Hillary, whoso wonderfully made my first fursona badge, I feel a slight urge to pick up a pencil and paper.

To lift my spirits, Spi says we'll be making lots of trips out of state over the course of next year. Cons, slight road trips, and to the beach again. Maybe Charleston, the land of pirate para. He's also the only one pushing my ass to scrimp and save to make it to FC in California next year, saying "work is important, but so is a vacation". I appreciate his effort to make me see life not as one big rat race. ^^

FC, yes. I thought a few days ago I would have to skip it, seeing as the money situation is booty. However, I am sure Mr. Kitty would be out some cash if Lar and I skipped out, plus everyone might even be mildly disappointed we didn't show. So I'm gonna save, work extra hours, and cheat by putting some things on credit card if I have to.

you lousy nigger, if you are reading this, GET STROKIN'. WE ARE GOING TO FC TOGETHER, OR I WILL KILL YOU WHILE YOU ARE SLEEPING OR TAKING A SHIT. Put them hoes to work.



Here's to success.

001. Real name → Mer

002. Nickname → Murphy

003. Status → Single.

004. Zodiac sign → Leo.

005. Male or female → Female.

006. Elementary → Dogwood, TN.

007. Middle School → Kammerer.

008. High School → Ballard.

009. Smart → I like to think so, sometimes.

010. Hair color → Black.

011. Long or short → Longish.

012. Loud or Quiet → Usually quiet, except around the roomies.

013. Sweats or Jeans → Black khakis with silver eyelets.

014. Phone or Camera → Camera.

015. Health freak → Trying to be. Not when you're poor, though.

016. Drink or Smoke? → BOTH.

017. Do you have a crush on someone? -> Ain't tellin' you jack.

018. Eat or Drink → Drink.

019. Piercings → Seven.

020. Tattoos → WHY THE FUCK DON'T I HAVE EIGHT OF 'EM YET.

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → My ears, 6th grade.

024. First best friend → Stephanie, TN.

025. First award → Grade school, for winning Field Day.

026. First crush → Brian Bollinger, first grade.

027. First pet → Pepper, the reverse Dalmation.

028. First big vacation → Hmm. Skiing with the folks in Colorado.

030. First big birthday → 5th birthday. Everyone was there, all my family. I even remember the pink and white cake, and I always asked for the piece on it with the roses.

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nothing.

050. Drinking → Nothing.

052. I'm about to -> Go to bed so's I can come home and clean my room later. And watch Hellsing Ultimate.

053. Listening to → Bone Thugs.

054. Plans for today -> Work. Clean. Bed. Watch Hellsing. Maybe wear a silly hat. Maybe play Killzone...

055. Waiting for -> Me to feel sleepy...

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids?how many? what gender? -> Fuck kids.

059. Want to get married? → Fuck you, too!

060. Careers in mind → Novelist.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOYs?
068. Lips or eyes -> Eyes AND lips. I like a nice lip shape.

070. Shorter or taller? –> Same or slightly taller. I have sort of this Napoleonic complex.

072. Romantic or spontaneous → Eh...

073. Nice stomach or nice arms → I'm not big on a lotta muscle. Being lean is nice.

074. Sensitive or loud → Both, at times.

075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship.

077. Trouble maker or hesitant → Both.

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → More like broken them.

081. Ran away from home → For a few hours.

084. Broken someones heart -> Unintentionally? All the time. Like the time my friend called me in the middle of a heavy nap with "Alright, I know this is dumb, and I'm such an idiot, but I really really like you, and I wish we could date sometime, but I know you aren't dating right now, and I really hate myself for saying this outloud, but I had to say it, so I'm sorry," and all I said was "Okay...bye bye,". Then I left a message later saying that I was doped up on Nyquil. Sometimes I think I have such little regard for people's feelings what like me.

085. Been arrested → Almost.

087. Cried when someone died → Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Meh.

090. Miracles → Sometimes.

091. Love at first sight → Hell no.

092. Heaven → Limbo.

093. Santa clause → I pretend to, so I still make cookies and milk at night to leave 'em in the morning.

094. Sex on the first date → Fuck that.

095. Kiss on the first date → No way.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Sure.

098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → No. Not really at all.

099. Do you believe in God -> Christianity makes me itchy. BLOOD FOR THE BLOOD GOD.

"Our goal is to make music that sounds like a smooth but firm hot buttered pelvic massage."

I'm gonna shake his hand, one day.



--MURPHY--

WHY THE FUCK DO ONLY SUBSCRIBERS GET TO DO POLLS?! That's fucking stupid.

I am mad at everything. >=[